I'll be honest though, I have not been in a good place for a few months. I feel better now.
There was plenty of stuff going on, lots of it happy and good, but I just couldn't bring myself to enjoy it.
People's lives continue to move forward. Weddings, engagements, babies, houses, pets, relocations. I know, I know, it's totally unrealistic and unfair, but I only saw myself moving backwards. But I didn't want to talk about it. I knew people with a much stronger pain, and I would feel like a wimp if I complained about my considerably more minor pain.
I felt I didn't have anything worth saying, so I said nothing.
I do feel better. Perhaps I'm not moving forwards, but I'm not moving backwards either. I shouldn't compare myself to others. But you can tell yourself that all you like... believing it is another thing altogether.
We're 35 days in, but I'm ready to say HELLO 2015!